Love

It feels so right,
  Here in your arms.
  Don't understand how someone
    Could hate us for this,
  Nor even think that it is their concern.

How simple it seems to me
  I love you
  And you love me

  We hurt no one
    Not even each other.

So why is it so wrong?
All these people with their hate
Where does it all come from?

This is all I've ever wanted,
  Peaceful nights
    With the one I love...

Instead we have but moments together,
  Running all the time
  To escape the hate.

Do they really believe
  That I would chose this life
    So full of pain?
As if the agony of 'normal' lust
  Wasn't pain enough?
That I sought out a way
  To infuriate them
    And hurt myself more?

My New Boyfriend

I tell myself
  That I want this
  But do I really?
I tell him that I love him,
  But isn't it really
  Just fear of being alone?

What are bruises to my skin
   Far more delicate is the soul within
So desperate for affection
I will take what he gives
  And suffer in silence
  Through both our tears.

Can't they understand,
  Those who condemn and judge,
  That I need him
    And I deserve him.

Suicidal Friend

So sad to think of you
  As all alone again
So I pretend not to hear
  Your whispered cries for help

Too embarassed at your honest weakness
<<Things aren't that bad>>
  I tell you
Then go home to pray
  That you don't prove me wrong.

And when the news comes
That you had carried out your threat
It struck my chest
  A leaden arrow of guilt
  Knowing I could have saved your life
    But chose instead
    To save my own emotional comfort.

Your friends offer consolations
Telling me how close we were
That no one could have known

But I knew
  You told me
  And I just walked away.

Now you are the one who is gone
  And I can never
     Ever
        Get you back
  No second chance
    Only guilt and agony.

Your final words mock me
Drive me screaming
  From my bed each night
    <<Please>>
    <<Please help me>>

I held him last night
  In my arms as he cried
  Wanted to soothe him
  I felt so helpless
    In the light of his despair

How can you deal
  With all the pain inside your head?
How can you sleep
  When the demons scream so loud?

I try to talk it out
  But no words can express
  His misery and grief
    Nor dispell his loneliness
  Alone in a nightmare
  He can never escape
    Trapped by the walls
      Of his own self-hate.

  What have you done
    That this is just punishment
          For you sins?
  Who did you wrong
  That you feel you deserve this?

I love you so much
  I don't care about your past
  I just pray for our future.

How can you deal
  With all the pain inside your head?
How do you sleep
  When the demons scream so loud?

Despair creeps up
  Upon my tounge
  To taint my ev'ry word

nothing that I say
  can stay pure
    of it's influence

People say
  be happy
    and write us happy songs
To please them
  I try
    but it just turns out all wrong.